WHY?

I've told myself that I'll not (ever) fall in love to him again, but now, I did. I've got the same, old feeling, overwhelming me right now, and it sucks! I really want to say that I still love him.. But I know that he will refuse to hear it.. The other guy keep 'controlling' me, and this makes me exhausting! I almost fed-up! Oh feeling, please be nice to me.. I suffer much more than I thought.. But it's worth.. Making sure that this harmony situation is still there.. I just hope that I can hold on just a little longer.. Hmm...