That's it. We're over. On 17th Oct 2012.. I.. make the decision.. and it's quite tough to say goodbye... We cried.. But I feel that sense of relief from being shackled. Unfortunately.. this feeling doesn't last longer.. I think that I want him back.. And that's a BAD idea that ever popped up in my mind..
I certainly know that there's no way I'll go back to him.. After all that I've done to him.. He will not accept me again.. He will search for another.. better lady.. better than me.. That's for sure.. And it hurts me, A LOT. Deserve me right for doing such things to him.. I abandoned him.. Keep ignoring him.. HATE him.. And now.. There would be no difference if I regret it now.. Things will never change as I wish it to be.. NEVER..
Now I'm attached to this handsome, cute guy.. And he admires me, much than I thought. Hmm.. Things gonna be tangled after this.. Well, I am not a 'me' if I didn't make some mess, hehe.. Bad of me..
I'm just hoping that this broken-heart is a part of moving on.. It'll be good to feel.. As much as a human can hold that kind of feeling..
